As the weather turns cold and Christmas approaches I find myself missing Giovanna more then words can describe. My baby girl should be here with us getting ready to celebrate her first Christmas. I should be out buying her first Christmas outfit and having pictures taken not searching for angel ornaments for her tree...it breaks my heart that she cant be here with us. I try so hard to stay positive and thankful for what we have but some days it hurts so bad for what we dont have. I know the kids miss her and that hurts...just praying we can make it through the holidays.....