Welcome to my blog....I started this blog to express my feeling in the life and death of my precious angel, Giovanna Jean. She will always be in our hearts....we love you baby girl!

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Wednesday, March 14, 2012

18 months

I wonder if I will ever stop counting the days and months since Giovanna was born..if she lived she would have been 18 months old, a year and a half. I can't even imagine, I'm sure she would be walking and talking trying to keep up with her brothers and sister and probably starting to get into their stuff. I can't help but find myself thinking what my life would be like with two babies. I'm beginning to realize that 2 years will be here before I know it. The pain isn't going away, it's getting easier to live with but I still think about Giovanna every day...some days I wish I didn't have to carry this burden that I could just be a mom whose baby didn't die. I realize though for some reason one I may never know God choose me to be Giovanna's mom. I feel like I write the same things every month, I'm trying not to dwell in my pain I go on because I have to but I miss my little girl so much. I love you baby girl!

1 comment:

  1. Thinking of you always. I think the "what-if's" and "what could've been's" are the hardest for me too.