March For Babies

For some reason I didn't publish this post (I have a bad habit of thinking I'll come back and do it but then I don't get the chance) so here it is...

 Today we did the March for Babies in Honor of Giovanna we have never done anything like this before so I wasn't sure what to expect. A few months back I started a team I set a goal of $500 for our team unsure if we would make it....much to my surprise we raised $1100!!! I would like to say THANK YOU to everyone who supported our team by either donations or coming our and walking with us, I hope to raise even more next year! Here's a few pics from that day!

Nick & I and the kids!



The whole team!



Joey releasing his butterfly

It's unbelievable how quickly time goes by....today marks 8 months since Giovanna's birth & death. Not a day goes by that I don't think about her, miss her and wish she was here with us. When I think back to last January and we just found out that we were expecting 8 months seemed so far away; now when I think back to September and that day Giovanna was born it seems like yesterday. I think about who she would be....who she would look like, what her temperament would be, would she be crawling or trying to pull herself up? I can dream about her and wonder who she'll be but none of that will bring her back to my arms. Part of the healing process for me has been accepting....accepting that it happened to us, we lost our beautiful baby girl and accepting that nothing I do or say can change that, nothing will bring her back to me. As much as it hurts I truly believe that everything happens for a reason and although I may never know the reason I choose to accept that....this is my life and my path and I will live it to the fullest, no regrets, knowing that one day I will hold my baby girl again. I saw a quote the other day it looked some thing like this;

in my heart
   always
               in my thoughts

and that she is. I love and miss you baby girl!